Decisions, decisions ...

John's taking his test right now; he said that he felt ready for it.  I hope that he does well!

After the test, a bunch of his classmates are going to a Korean BBQ Restaurant (John says that it's not really BBQ) to eat and do karaoke.  John really wants to go, while I'm a bit more ... ambivalent.

First, by the end of the week I'm tired.  I want to go home and get into some comfortable clothes and relax!  Going out with a bunch of people I hardly know isn't very relaxing.  Of course, then the arguement is that I won't get to know them if I stay home.

Another thing is the karaoke - I've never been before, but I know what it is, and I'm not sure I'd like it.  Not sure why - but I get way too uptight about music.  I don't know most of the music, and it really bothers me when music isn't sung properly.  I looked up a list of the top 500 karaoke songs ... and I barely knew 7 of them well enough to be able to sing them.  John and I were looking at some last night, and let's just say I didn't react well when John started singing horribly on purpose.  I don't know why it grates so badly, but it drives me up a wall!

On top of that is the whole social anxiety deal - I've been prepping myself to go to Western Day on Saturday.  That's an annual event that our church puts on.  We went last year, and I had the worst attack of anxiety yet - it took everything in me to not collapse in tears when we arrived.  I spent the entire time sitting quietly in a corner while John played flag football with the men.  It wasn't fun.

I know I *ought* to go to both... karaoke tonight and western day tomorrow.  I honestly don't want to go to either.  But I promised John I'd go to at least one of them with him.  I don't know what I'll do.

John will want to get out of the house and have fun this weekend; he always does after a test!  So, we'll see what happens!

Happy Friday!